“Straight-(Love story of a gay)
“ye kya hai yaar kabse phone try kar rhi hu kitna soyega uth ja aaj ka Friday hai Saturday nahi ofc nahi jana kya? “
Subah ke 8 baje the aur Sandip abhi tak sorha tha aur Punam Sandip ko call karke utha rhi thi.
“Ha babu uth gaya abhi just fresh hone jarha hu chal tu bhi ready hoja bye love u”
“love u too”
Sandip aur Punam ke din ki shuruat roj aise hi hoti hai. Dono MNC me job karte the aur kuch hi mahino me ye pyar shadi me convert honewala tha. Story simple thi college me mile pyaar hua aur fir ikrar aur happy ending.
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“Dekho ye report aaj hi complete krni hai fir kitna bhi time lage”
“Ok Sir I’ll do it” Sandip apne desk pe jake baitha aur tabhi call aagaya,
“oye Sandy aaj sham ko barista me mil kuch important baat karni hai aur ha Punam ko bhi leke aaiyyo”
“are Rakesh yaar aaj bahot kaam hai aaj nahi aasakta kal milte hai na kal off hai”
“bola na aaj hi milna hai aur saale barista tere ofc ke samne hi hai so mujhe kuch nahi pata aaj sham ko 7.30 aana hai means aana hai ok bye mujhe boss bula rha hai”
Rakesh ne phone rakh diya aur yaha Sandip ne frustration me phone rakh diya.
“saala kitne dino se bas kaam hi kaam chal rha hai need a break now yaar…”
“hello Punam aaj puri gang ikattha horhi hai Barista me aur tujhe aana hai ok”
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At Barista :
“hello everyone……….”
“abe akele aaya hai kya, Punam kaha hai?”
“are woh aarhi hai washroom gayi hai, kaise ho sab kamino kitne dino baad mile ho”
Rakesh, Sandip, Arman,Manoj, Punam aur Preity eksath college me padhte the aur bahot months ke baad aaj sare eksath aaye the..
“hey guys maine tumsabko aaj isliye bulaya hai kyunki main ek chota sa get together plan kiya tha pure clg ka nahi hai sirf apne class ka. 3saal baad hum sab firse sabse milenge purani baate taja hongi so much xcited……. What say guys???” Preity ne sara plan banaya tha woh to clg time se hi ek tom boy types ki ladki thi.
“omg…….. thts really awsume Idea yaar… hum sabse fir se milenge purani yaade clg ki haaye me to abhi se senti hota jarha hu “ Arman bolne laga.
“oye chup kar rotadu…” Rakesh ne Arman ki baat katate huye kaha.
“hey guys see this……. My new I-pod.. kaisa hai?” Manoj ko hamesha se hi Ipod phones ka bada shauk tha.
“hey yaar its awsume kitne ka liya?” Rakesh ne pucha.
“yaar gift mila hai gf ne diya tha hamari pehli commitment wali anniversary pe” Manoj romantic hoke bol rha tha.
Sandip me I-pod dekha aur uska chehra achanak se utar gaya mano use kuch baat yaad aagayi ho aisi baat jisne uska mood achanak se change kr diya.
Yaha inki meeting khatm hui aur sablog wapas jane lage Punam aur Sandip ne decide kiya ke bahar se hi khakar jayenge.
Restaurant me baithne ke baad Sandip ka ukhda hua chehra dekhke Punam ne finally puch hi liya,
“babu kya hogaya tumhe? Achanak se aise udas kyu hogaye ho? Thodi der tak to ekdam sahi thi.”
“are nahi kuch nahi bas aise hi, tum batao kya khaogi?”
“dekho jhuth na bolo koi to baat jarur hai jo tumhe khaye jarhi hai chal batao jaldi”
“ Punam, aaj Manoj ka I-pod dekha aur bahar gende ke phool dekhe to NIRAJ ki yaad aagayi.. tumhe yaad hai Niraj?”
“ha yaad hai na…… Niraj, tumhara so called best friend. Par aaj tumhe achanak uski yaad kaise aagayi?”
“ yaar tumhe nahi lagta uske sath maine bura kiya? Kaha hoga woh iswaqt? Kya kar rha hoga? Woh thik to hoga na? usne mujhe wadaa kiya tha milne ke liye fir kyu nahi aaya woh?”
“are Sandip itte sare sawaal, woh wapas nahi aaya kyunki uska wapas na aana hi sabke liye achha tha.Bhul gaye tum usne humare sath kya kiya tha? Mujhe to kabhi uski shaql bhi nhi dekhni”
“Punam kya tum sach me bhul gayi usne hamare liye kya kiya tha? Woh sach me hamara best frnd tha yaar tum mano ya na mano. Mujhe bas usse ek baar milke kuch sawal karne hai bass”
Niraj ki baat nikalte hi dono me ek sannata chha gaya. Dono ne chupchap khana khaya aur Sandip ne Punam ko ghar drop krke apne ghar wapas aagaya.
Ghar pohochte hi usne apna locker khola aur usme se ek purana I-pod nikala aur dekhne laga. Dekhte hi dekhte uski aakhon me pani aagaya aur us pani me use apni college life saaf dikhayi dene lagi…………
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3 years before:
“Are yaar ye bus kyu nahi aarhi hai, aaj clg ka pehla din hai aaj hi late hogaye na to gaaliya khani padegi sir ki” Rakesh bus ka wait krte krte thak gaya tha.
“aajayegi yaar bus woh chhod tu bata hw ws ur vacations? Ab to final year hai fir clg hamesha ke liye khatm… maja aajayega”
Sandip aur Rakesh ki bus stop pe baate chal rahi thi. Tabhi 2 ladke bhagte huye gaye aur waha khadi hui ek aurat ko dhakka deke bhag gaye.
Sandip bhagte huye us aurat ke pas pohocha usne unhe uthaya.
“aunty aap thik to ho na? kahi lagi to nahi?”
“thank u beta me thik hu”
“aunty ye aapke liye” Sandip ne apne jeb me se gende ka phool nikala aur us aurat ko de diya.
Tabhi bus aayi aur woh dono bus me baith ke college ke liye chale gaye.
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“Gud morning sir”
“gud morning everyone, aaj aapke class me ek new student aaya hai… Niraj Verma. Kaha hai please stand up and apna intro do” Sir Niraj ko class me dhundh rahe the aur tabhi ek ladka bhagte huye class me aaya.
“Niraj…. Niraj..”
“yes sir” Ek ladka bhagte huye aaya aur door se awaaz lagayi.
“waah pehle din hi late hogaye.. come inside and first give ur intro and then sit down”
“Gud mrng ever1, I m Niraj Verma came from Poona. Thank you”
5.7 ht lagbhag 60kg weight slim fair yet attractive simple with sweet smile. Niraj pasine se bheega hua tha aur baithne ke liye jagah dhundh raha tha. As always last benches full the tabhi uski najar first bench pe gayi jaha sirf ek ladki baithi hui thi.
Specs lagaye huye aur book kholke kuch dekh rahi thi. Niraj uske pas gaya aur bench pe baith gaya.
“Hie Niraj, welcome to our college, I m Punam”
“Nice to meet you Punam”
Hi hello hua hi tha ke ladkon ne chillana shuru kar diya…
“ oye hoye pehla pehla pyaar hai pehli hi bench pe hai.....”
“don’t look at them ye log clg ke sabse gande ladke hai inse dur hi rehna tum” Punam Niraj ko samjha rahi thi aur yaha Sandip gusse se laal pila horha tha.
Sandip Punam ko 1st year se chahta tha dono achhe dost the par 2saal hogaye the Sandip ne aajtk Punam ko apne dil ki baat nahi batayi thi par Punam ko kya pure clg ko pata tha ke Sandip loves Punam and isiliye aaj ek naye ladke ko uske pas baitha hua dekh woh jealous feel kar raha tha.
Class khatm hote hi Sandip Punam ko dhundhne laga.
“hey Punam, chalo ghar chalte hai, woh tera naya dost kaha gaya.”
“ha chal chalte hai, naya frnd? Achha woh Niraj… pata nahi kaha gaya and jane se use he is such a boring guy.”
Punam ke muh se uske liye bura sunke Sandip khush hogaya par fir usne details lene ke liye pucha, “boring? Kyu aisa kya kiya usne? Bahot bolta hai kya?”
“bahot? Are kuch nahi bolta bas apne aap me hi rehta hai, Hi hello ke baad usne kuch baat nahi ki aur chala gaya bataya bhi nahi… such a rude guy and u knw kisiki taraf dekhta bhi nahi niche dekhta rahega always such a weirdo”
“ohh… chalo badhiya hia fir to”
“badhiya kyu??? Oh oh oh … dnt tell me r u jealous?”
“r u mad or what? Why should I be jealous”
Aur fir sandip ne topic change kiya aur dono ghar jane ke liye nikal gaye.
Aise hi kuch din chale gaye. Niraj ka clg me koi dost nahi bana. Hamesha chup chup rehnewale Niraj se rude, weird boring pakau bolke koi bhi frndship nahi karta tha aur uske body language and non interesting nature se bhi ye saaf dikhta tha ki use kisise dosti karne me koi interest nahi hai.
Par Punam ko uske is behavior ki wajah se use janne ki bahot curiosity aagayi thi. Woh janna chahti thi ke Niraj aise kyu behave karta hai kahi woh psycho to nahi.
Aur ek din Niraj canteen me khana kha rha tha aur use akela baithe dekh Punam uske pas chali gayi.
“hey Niraj can I sit here?”
Niraj ne use ek smile pass ki aur punam uske pas jakar baith gayi.
Punam ke piche piche Sandip, Rakesh, Arman aur Manoj bhi usi table pe baith gaye.
“ yaar mujhe pata nahi tha ke hamare clg me gunge ladkon ko bhi admission milta hai” Manoj ne Niraj ko taunt marte huye kaha.
“are nahi pagal yaha log gunge nahi hai bas unke standard ke log nahi hai na yaha isliye hum jaison se koi baat nahi karta” Arman ne ek aur taunt maara.
“standard? Ye kya bol rhe ho tumlog?” Punam ne confused hokar pucha to Sandip ne jawaab diya.
“are u dnt knw? Hamare Niraj ke dad bahot bada business chalate hai, he is millionaire yaar isiliye to woh humjaise garibo se baate nahi karta”
Sandip ki baat sunke Niraj surprised hogaya.
“ are kya hua tumhe kya laga hame pata nahi chalega? Kitne lucky ho yaar tum.. jo mango woh papa pehle hi de dete honge, Mom dad page 3 parties karte honge aur tum to bahot aish karte honge”
Rakesh ki ye baat sunkar Niraj ki aakhon me pani aagya aur woh apni plate chhodke waha se chala gaya.
“isko kya hogaya achanak? And u guys pagal ho tumlog ye sab bolne ki kuch jarurat thi? Khana chhodke chala gaya woh… u guys r impossible” Punam ko samajh nhi aarha tha woh aisa weird kyu hai.
Punam ka gussa dekhke Sandip bhi bol pada, “ are humne aisa kya kar diya sach hi to bol rhe the and hum sirf thode frank hoke usse dosti krna chahte the socha iska koi dost nahi hai hum honge to achha lagega par ise dekho saala bada ajib psycho hai.Bhad me jaye ab to isse koi dosti vosti nahi karni”
“oye hello hello kya horha hai sabke chehre aise utre huye kyu hai?” Tom boy Preity ne canteen me entry le li.
“are woh Niraj hai woh rote huye chala gaya yaar… kyu roya hoga? Bada ajib lag raha hai”
Punam ki baat ko avoid krte huye Preity ne kaha, “leave him yaar, he is psycho, main baat bata.. kal teri bday party hai bol kaha denewali hai party”
“ Kal sham ko mere ghar, Mom dad bahar janewale hai so humlog milke dhamal karenge”
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Punam’s Bday party :
“Are yaar ye pizza order kiya tha abtk aaya kyu nahi… bhuk lag rahi hai ye pizza boy to apni bday party spoil kr dega” Preity pizza ka wait krte krte irritate hogayi thi.
“aajayega yaar abhi to bas 25mins hi huye hai tu tbtk dance kr aaja” Rakesh ne Preity ko nachne ke liye khincha aur tabhi doorbell baji.
“yess finally pizza aagaya” Preity bhagte huye gayi aur usne door khola,
“ Niraj tum yaha kya kar rahe ho?”
“Mam, aapka order, Pizza aur cold drinks… and aapka bill”
Niraj ko pizza boy ke uniform me dekhke sablog socked hogaye. Koi kuch bol nahi raha tha sab use bas dekh hi rahe the. Ek ajib si feeling sabke dil me aarhi thi. Tabhi Sandip bola,
“hey Niraj its Punam’s bday come join us yaar”
“ Sorry sir, me nahi aasakta mujhe aur bhi jagah pizza deliver karne hai aap please mera bill de dijiye”
Punam ne Niraj ko paise diye woh kuch nahi boli abhitk woh usi shock me thi.
Niraj ne paise liye aur change return krte waqt Punam ko wish kiya aur woh chala gaya.
Aur yaha inki party spoil hogayi, sabke dil me kal hui baat ki guilt thi.
“dekha tumne, isiliye woh kal uth ke chala gaya, hum sabne milke uske economic condition ka majak udaya tha usko kitna hurt hua hoga yaar”
“hame use sorry bolna chahiye” Sandip ne apni galti manke decide kar liya ke sablog Niraj ko sorry bolenge aur party khatm hogayi.
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“ sorry yaar please, I knw its not easy but please maaf kar de” Rakesh Niraj se sorry bol rha tha sabki taraf se aur baki sab Niraj ki taraf dekh rhe the aur wait kar rhe the ki woh unhe maaf kar de.
“its ok guys, me aap logon se kabhi gussa tha hi nahi so just chill” Niraj ne situation light kr di.
“so frnds now?” Sandip ne shake hand krne ke liye hath aage kiya.
Aur Niraj ne bina time lagaye usse hath mila liya aaj pehli baar Niraj ko sabne haste huye dekha tha. Aaj woh bahot khush tha.
Sandip roj Niraj ke liye tiffin lata tha sablog sath me baithke khate the.
Dekhte hi dekhte dono ki dosti itni gehri hogayi ki dono ekdusre ke bina rehte hi nahi the. Agar koi Niraj ko dhundh rha ho to woh Sandip se puchta aur Sandip ko dhundh rha ho to Niraj se puchta. Ekdusre ke bina patta nhi hilta tha dono ka.
Niraj akela rehta tha isliye Sandip uski bahot care karta tha aur yaha Niraj bhi Sandip ke liye kuch bhi krne ko ready tha.
Sandip ko music bahot pasand aata tha par uske pas simple mobile hone ki wajah se woh hamesha apne group me kisi dost se mobile leke gane sunta rehta aur dance krta rehta tha. Niraj ne ye dekh liya tha aur fir sandip ke bday ke din.
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“happy bday sandyyyyyyyyyyyy…….. kamine aaj tu bada hogaya :D “
Sablogon ke sath Sandip ne cake cut kiya aur party celebrate hui. Aur fir Niraj ne Sandip ko gift diya aur ek gende ka phool.
“omg fir se gende ka phool, tujhe ye gande ka phool itna kyu pasand hai god knws, I-pod…….. wow its just superb… par Niraj itna mehenga gift?”
“are pagal gift me price nhi dekhte samjha.. maine socha tujhe kya gift du to fir samajh me aaya kyu na tujhe ye de du kyunki mera best frnd song sunne ke liye kisi aur se mobile mange mujhe bilkul pasand nhi aajse tu jab chahe songs sun sakta hai” Niraj Sandip ko convince kr rha tha gift accept krne ke liye.
Sandip emotional hogaya aur usne Niraj ko jor se hug kar liya, “yaar tu mere bare me kitna sochta hai I love u bro” ye sunte hi Niraj bahot khush hogaya.
Woh kuch aur bole tabhi Punam waha aagayi aur usne Sandip ko red rose dete huye bday wish kiya.
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“tune aajtk mujhe kuch nhi bataya… please bata na teri family ke bare me kaha hai kya karte hai and all?” Sandip Niraj ke room me baitha tha aur dono ki baate chal rhi thi.
“mere dad businessman hai, Puna me.. Mom socialist hai… ek bro hai chota 12th me. Dad mujhe pasand nahi karte isliye unhone mujhe ghar se nikal diya hai. College ki fees unhone bhar di hai, har month paise bhejte hai par mujhe unke paiso pe nahi jeena isliye me khud part time job karta hu. That’s it”
“par woh tujhe pasand kyu nahi karte? Aisa kya hogaya jo unhone tujhe ghar se nikal diya?” Sandip ne curiosity se pucha.
“yaar woh sab chhod not much important, tu bata, u love Punam na?” Punam ka naam sunte hi Sandip blush krne laga.
“ha yaar 2saal se and u knw woh bhi mujhse pyaar karti hai. Aur shayd ab mujhe aage badhna chahiye. Kya bolta hai?”
Sandip ki baat se Niraj udas hogaya tha usne bas ha bolte huye gardan hilai aur topic khatm kar diya.
Din ba din badhti janewali Sandip aur Punam ki najdikiya Niraj ke liye problem banti jarhi thi. Use gussa aane laga tha woh jealous feel karne laga tha. Sandip ka Punam ki taraf badhta jhukao aur Niraj ki taraf kam hota attention Niraj ko ganda feel karwata tha.
Niraj hamesha sochta tha ke use ander se itni jalan kyu hoti hai Sandip aur Punam ko eksath dekhke. Aur use ab ye ehsas hone laga tha ke shayd woh Sandip se pyaar karne laga tha.
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Ek din sab logon me discussion chal rha tha ke rape hote hai to inme galti kisiki hoti hai,
Sandip : ye sab ladkiya chote chote kapde pehenti hai na is wajah se rape hota hai, apna sharir dikhayengi to ladke to provoke honge hi na.
Preity: achha to jo auraton ka rape hota hai woh? Woh to full sari pehenti hai and wot about small kids? Ye unki bhi galti hai?
Niraj : true yaar, galat ladki nahi hoti galat hoti hai ladkon ki soch,unki niyat, par hamesha aisa nahi hota jab hum humari society jante hai ke kitni gandi hai fir late night parties and all nahi krna chahiye…… Galti halaki ladkon ki hai unki soch ki hai unke vasna ki hai par woh agar hum sudhar nahi sakte to hame thoda alert rehna chahiye.
Girls hamesha bolti hai ke hame freedom chahiye hum ghar me nahi baithengi. Freedom ka mtlb unke najar me hota hai short skirts short tops pehenna par kya aapne kabhi dekha hai ladke ko nikkar me ghumte huye woh to jeans hi pehenenge kahi pass jana ho to Capri pehenenge……. So tali kabhi ek hath se nahi bajti ladkiyon ko bhi apna dayra samajhna chahiye…
Rakesh: Dhanya ho prabhu aapne to pravachan suna diya.
Sab hasne lage par Punam Niraj ki baton se impress hogayi.
Punam : tum bahot intellectual baate krte ho Niraj nice, warna ise dekha Sandy ko kamina kahi ka.
Bolke Punam waha se nikal gayi to sandip uske piche piche use manane ke liye chala gaya. Dono me khatti mithi takrar horhi thi jo ke pyar ki nishani thi aur ye dekhkar Niraj ab gussa hone laga tha.
Woh unke pas jane hi wala tha ke preity bich me aagyi, “hey Niraj, teri mom aayi hai waha glassdoor ke pas khadi hai ja jaldi se”
“meri mom?” Niraj shockd hogaya tha. Woh bhagte huye glassdoors ke pas gaya aur waha sach me mom ko khada dekh woh surprised hogaya.
“mom, aap yaha?” Niraj ki aankhe nam hogayi thi.
“kaisa hai tu? Aur dekh to patla sa hogaya kuch khata pita nahi kya? Ye aankhe aisi kyu lag rhi hai raat bhar jagta hai kya? Jyada night outs mat kiya kar frnds ke sath tabiyat kharab hojayegi… aur ha padhta bhi hai ke nahi? Yaha to tere frnds bhi ban gaye honge……. Are kuch bol to chup khada hai bail ki tarah.”
“mom…. Aap kuch bolne dogi to bolunga na eksath itne sare sawaal…”
“to kya karu, teri bahot yaad aati hai”
“par me aapko bilkul miss nahi krta, nahi krta me miss aapko…. Bilkul nahi” na bolte bolte Niraj ne mom ko hug kar liya ab dono ki aankhe bheeg gayi thi.
“par aap yaha achanak kaise? And dad?”
“tere dad ke sath aayi thi unhe yaha kuch business ka kaam tha to socha tabtak me jake tumse mil lu. Ye le tere liye alu ke parothe laye hai kha le”
“wow alu ke parothe…… par mom dad nahi aaye mujhse milne?”
“ woh gate ke bahar hai car me”
“unhe mujhse nahi milna?” Niraj ne mom ki aakhon me dekha aur tabhi mom se raha nahi gaya ab woh Niraj se aakhe nhi mila pa rhi thi.
“chalo me chalti hu tere dad call kar rhe hai warna gussa hojayenge… apna khayal rakhna aur ha love u my son”
“love u too mom”
Mom waha se chali gayi par mom ko itne dino baad dekhkar Niraj khush bhi tha aur udas bhi woh wahi baith gaya aur parothon ki taraf dekhne laga.
“hey mom chali gayi kya Niraj?” Punam waha aayi
“ha just abhi gayi hai, ye parothe deke gayi hai”
Niraj ko udas dekh Punam ne topic change krne ke liye kaha, “wow parothe kitne tasty dikh rhe hai chalo me to khaungi… tum bhi le lo”
“nahi tum kha lo me baad me khaunga”
“are aise kaise sabse pehle tum khao ye lo chalo me tumhe khilati hu” kehkar Punam ne ek niwala leke Niraj ki taraf hath badhaya Punam ko dekhake Niraj ke sabr ka bandh tut gaya aur woh Punam ko hug karke jor jor se rone laga.
“Niraj tum batao to hua kya hai? Aisa kya prblm hai ke tum apne family se dur rehte ho? Hua kya hai bataoge to dil halka hojayega” Punam Niraj ko samjha hi rahi thi ki use hug krta dekh Sandip waha bhagte hute aagaya.
“ye sab kya horha hai yaha ha? Gutur gu?” Sandip ne janbujhkr chidate huye kaha.
Uska ye comment sunke Niraj uthkar waha se chala gaya.
“Sandy r u mad? Situation bhi nhi samajhti hai na tujhe kahi bhi kuch bhi bol deta hai..useless kahi ka” bolkar Punam bhi waha se chali gayi
“are ab mujhe kya pata tha ke Niraj ro raha hai? Are hua kya bata to?” Sandip Punam ke piche piche chillate huye jarha tha aur Punam uski ek baat nahi sun rhi thi.
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“niraj kya hua tha tujhe kal? Tu ro kyu raha tha? Bata na please?” Sandip dusre din clg me aate hi Niraj se puchne laga.
“kal? Are kuch nahi bas homesickness thi aur kuch nahi.”
“sach me na? chalo thik hai aur ise dekh ye pagal Punam pata nahi mujhe kal kya kya bol gayi”
“xcuse me jo maine bola hai na woh sachhai thi tu hai hi useless kuch samajhta hi nahi” Punam gussa krte huye boli
“achha me kuch nahi samajhta, kya samajhna chahiye mujhe? Bata to?” Sandip naughty hoke Punam se puch rha tha.
“kuch nahi ab to samajhne wale ko ishaara kafi hota hai” Punam ne bhi achha sa comment pass kar diya.
“hey guys me Pani bharke aata hu” bolkar Niraj waha se nikal gaya. Sandip aur Punam ki badhti najdikiya dekhke woh ander hi ander jealous feel kar rha tha.
“ Punam ko Sandy ke sath dekhkar mujhe itna gussa kyu aata hai? Kahi me pyaar me to nahi hu na?” Niraj man hi man me soch raha tha.
“ha yaar yahi to pyaar hai…. Ha I m in love…. Aur indono ko sath me dekhke mujhe itna gussa aata hai to ab me inhe sath me aane hi nahi dunga.”
Niraj ne ab soch liya tha ke woh Sandip aur Punam ke bich me jhagde lagwake unhe alag kar dega taki use sukun mile aur woh khud try kar sake.
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Woh punam ke najdik jane laga. Uski prblms ki wajah se Punam ke dil me uske liye concern to thi hi aur usi baat ka fayda lete huye Niraj ab Punam ka closed frnd ban gaya. Dekhte hi dekhte ab Punam ki sari baate Niraj ko pata rehti thi. Har jagah dono eksath dikhte the mano Sandip frame se out aur Niraj fame me In.
Dono ke dosti ke charche pure class me hone lage. Aur udte udte rumors Sandip tak bhi pohoch gaye. Par sandip ko Niraj aur Punam pe trust tha isliye usne kabhi dono pe shaq nahi kiya. par har jagah wahi baate chalne ki wajah se ab uske dil me bhi shaq paida hone laga tha aur isko Niraj ne ekdin hawa de di aur ye chingari badi hone lagi
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“kaash is bag ki jagah kisika chehra hota to me kiss kar deta…….. ye bola tha na tune kisiko akele me” Niraj ne jaanbujhkr sandip ke samne topic nikala.
“ye to maine Punam ko bola tha, tujhe kaise pata?”
“Punam ne hi bataya mujhe, u knw na we r best frnds, woh mujhe sabkuch batati hai.”
“pagal hai kya woh hamari prsnal baate woh tujhe batati hai?”
“ha tum dono kya kya baate krte ho kaha kaha milte ho mujhe sab pata hota hai. Woh bata deti hai, usne kaha tha ke tu bada pakata hai to ye explain krne ke liye usne mujhe sari kahani batayi……….hehehee”
“what???????? Me pakata hu? Woh khud call krti hai mujhe aur mere bare me aise bolti hai?”
“are dekh to maine use bola ke yaar tumdono itne achhe frnds ho fir bhi aise kaise? To mujhe bolti hai ke woh mere liye itna important nhi hai.”
“waah kya baat hai, she is damn kamini… use batata hu me ab”
“are dekh yaar please mera naam mat lena maine tujhe bata diya bcz me tujhe aise nahi dekh sakta ke tu aise ladki ke piche jaye jo tujhe bhaav nhi deti aftrall u r my best frnd yaar”
“are nahi pagal me tera naam kyu aane dunga bich me tune to meri help kari hai par phir bhi mujhe believe nhi horha…… ek baar mujhe usse baat krni padegi”
“proof dikhau…. Ye teddy yaad hai na? ye mujhe Punam ne gift kiya hai”
“omg, ye teddy maine use uske bday pe gift kiya tha.” Sandip ko gusse me dekhkar Niraj khush horha tha.
Fir Niraj gaya Punam ke pass,
“Punam yaar dekh kal rakhabandhan hai aur tu mujhe kal clg me rakhi bandh dena”
“Rakhi? Achanak kyu? Aur tu mera bhai banna chahta hai kya?”
“me to tera hamesha ki tarah best frnd hi rehna chahta hu par clg me harkoi baat karta hai ke indono ka kuch chal rha hai. Aur ab to…”
“ab to kya?” Punam dhyan deke sun rhi thi.
“ab to Sandip ko bhi lagta hai ke humdono ke bich kuch chal rha hai par me meri wajah se tumdono ke bich me prblm nhi banna chahta that’s why.”
“sandy bhi aisa sochta hai? Use bhi bharosa nahi? And please ha, matlb uska shaq dur krne ke liye humdono jabardasti bhai behen ban jaye…. Me nahi karungi aisa. Aur fir mujhe aisa bf nhi chahiye jo mujhpe trust na kare…”
Punam ki baate sunke Niraj aur khush hogaya aur wait krne laga kal ki… Rakshabandhan ki…!!
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“chalo ab celebrate krte hai rakshabandhan” Rakesh ne chillate huye kaha
“to ab kon kisko rakhi bandhega”
“Punam bandhegi rakhi uske best bro Niraj ko” Arman bol pada.
“oh hello please ha me apne group me se kisiko bhai nahi banane wali, frnds hai wahi best hai and waise bhi maine koi Rakhi bhi nahi layi hai” Punam ne chidate huye kaha.
“ye le rakhi maine layi hai, bandh de Niraj ko” Sandip ne jeb me se rakhi nikali.
“tune rakhi kyu layi hia? And layi bhi hai to wotevr me nahi bandhnewali” Punam ne Sandip ko ignore krte huye kaha.
“oh rakhi nhi bandhni Ishq jo farmana hai…. Mtlb jo sablog bolte hai tumdono ke bare me wo sahi hai hai na?”
“log hamare bare me kya bolte hai isse mujhe fark nhi padta par tu mujhse shaq karega maine nhi socha tha…….. aur ha ye jo tu meri test lerha hai na rakhi bandh aur apne aap ko sach proof kr de to me bata du sirf tera shaq dur krne ke liye me ye sab nahi karungi…roj tu kuch na kuch bolega aur kya me roj sunungi.. Me koi sita nahi jot ere liye agnipariksha du…aur aisa shaqi bf hone se achha me single hi thik hu…”
Bolkar Punam waha se chali gayi aur yaha Sandip gusse me apne ghar chala gaya. Aur ye pura tamasha dekhke Niraj bahot khush hogaya.
Sandip ka shaq din ba din badhta jarha tha. Aur ab use Niraj se bhi nafrat hone lagi thi kyunki woh Punam ke aaspass hi rehta tha hamesha isliye Sandip ka shaq badh gaya tha.
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Khush hokar Niraj ab Punam se milne chala gaya.Punam bahot jyada disturbd thi aur bahot ro rahi thi. Niraj ko dekhke usne Niraj ko hug kar liya aur rote rote bolne lagi,
“I loved him yaar…… I really loved him….. maine nahi socha tha woh mere bare me aisa sochega……I loved him”
Punam ko aise rote huye dekh Niraj ko ajib sa feel hone laga. Use pata tha jab woh udas hota tha Punam hi use support deti thi uske liye sabse ladti thi aur ab usne Punam ko itna bada dukh de diya ke woh sambhal nahi pa rhi hai. Use uski galti ka ehsas tab hua jab Punam ko usne rote huye dekha kyunki kisiko khone ka dard Niraj ke alawa aur kon janta tha.
Usne Punam ko chup karaya aur bina kuch bole woh waha se chala gaya.
Us din raat bhar woh sirf sochta hi raha. Niraj dil ka kabhi bura nahi tha aur kisike liye bura sochta bhi nahi tha par aaj usne apne jealousy ke karan bahot badi galti kar di thi. Ek jagah Punam ro rahi thi to dusri jagah Sandip aur yaha Niraj dukhi tha.
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Dusre din:
“sandip mujhe tujhse kuch baat karni hai important” Niraj Sandip ke pass gaya.
“BC, saale bhag yaha se mujhe tujhse koi baat nahi karni samjha, saale tere jaisa dost bhagwan dushman ko bhi na de apne best frnd ke gf ke sath hi shuru… saale abhi ke abhi yaha se nikal warna pit jayega tu mere se” Sandip bahot jyada gusse me tha.
“ Sandip please bahot important baat hai please ek baar baat kar le mere se please”
“achha chal bhok kya bolna hai?” Sandip use classroom me legaya jo puri khali thi.
“Sandip humdono ke bich me kuch nahi hai yaar seriously tujhe misunderstanding hui hai”
“me tujhe andha dikhta hu kya? Kuch dikh nhi rha mujhe kya chal rha hia dono ka… kaise ekdusre ke piche bhag rhe ho tumdono….. just leave man..” bolkar Sandip classroom se bahar nikal raha tha. Tabhi Niraj ne kuch socha usne lambi saans li aur bol pada,
“Sandip me Punam se pyaar kar hi nahi sakta yaar bcz I m gay”
Ye sunke Sandip wahi ruk gaya woh piche muda aur Niraj ke pass jakar khada hogaya, “kya?”
“Ha sandip, I am gay.. interested in boys only, me Punam se pyaar nahi karta yaar woh sirf tumse pyaar karti hai. Aur isiliye mere dad mujhse nafrat karte hai unhe gay son nahi chahiye unke status ke liye ye achha nahi hai isliye unhone mujhe ghar se nikal diya. Frnds ko pata chala to unhone frndship tod di. Isliye yaha aane ke baad maine soch liya tha ke koi rishta nahi banaunga jisse ke hurt ho par fir tumsab mere life me aaye, akela bin family ka ladka tumsab ke sath behta chala gaya…itni care itna pyar shayd hi kisine mujhe aajtak diya hoga aur fir pata hi nahi chala ke kab me tujhse pyar karne laga aur isi wajah se maine tumdono me misundrsnding create kar di. Me bhi kitna pagal tha na, na socha na samjha aur sapne dekhne lag pada, tumhara pyar dostiwala tha par me use pyaar samajhne laga. Woh sapne dekhne laga jo kabhi pure nahi honge, bhul gaya tha me ke gays ko sapne dekhne ka koi haq nahi hota, unke liye koi rishta nahi hota. Chahta to me bhi closet me rehke straight life ji sakta tha par gay banke single life bitana pasand hai jabki straight banke har baar mask pehenke rehne se achha atleast mujhe tasalli to hai ki me kisiko dhoka nahi de rha, kisike feeling ke sath nahi khel raha…. Me tujhe ye kabhi batana nahi chahta tha kyunki tere jaisa dost khona me afford nahi kar pata par aaj ye sab batana bahot jaruri hogaya tha. Humdono ke bich me kuch nahi hia Sandy, Punam tujhse pyaar karti hai woh bahot hurt hui hai ja use mana aur hosake to aaj hi use propose kar de. Usne mujhe kal hi bataya hai ke woh tujhse bahot pyaar karti hai” Niraj ki aakhon me aansu aagaye the.
Yaha sandip ko bahot bada jhatka lag gaya tha… Punam sachhi hai ye sunke woh khush hogaya tha, Niraj ne ye sab kiya ye sunke woh Niraj se bahot jyada gussa hogaya tha usne GAY word sun liya par shayd woh us word ke piche ke emotions nahi samajh paya.
Niraj kuch bole usse pehle hi Sandip waha se chala gaya. Niraj Sandip ke piche gaya.
Punam Preity ke sath entry wale lawn me baithke baate kar rahi thi. Sandip ne bilkul bhi time waste na karte huye bhagte huye waha pohocha. Punam bench pe baithi thi Sandip uske pas gaya aur ek ghutne pe baithe bola,
“ Punam, me bahot bada gadha hu jo maine meri princess pe shaq kiya,jhagda kiya, 2saal se humdono baat karte hai aur baton se jyada jhagde karte hai.. kya tum mere sath zindagibhar aise hi jhagde karna chahogi? I love u Punam… “
Ye sunke Punam shocked hogayi, sare students ab Punam ki taraf dekhne lage. Punam ne pyari si smile dete huye ha bol diya aur eksath sare students unhe wish karne ke liye unpe tut pade.
Niraj dur se ye sab dekhke hasne laga. Uski aakhon me pani par chehre pe hasi thi woh undono ko wish karne ke liye jane hi wala tha ki usne apne aap ko rok kiya kyunki ab woh samajh gaya tha uska role is story me ab hamesha ke liye khatm hogaya hai.
Woh haste huye apne ghar chala gaya.
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Achhe cause ke liye open up hua hu isliye sab dost waise hi rahenge ye sochke Niraj dusre din college gaya.
Par college me jakar usne kuch alag hi experience kiya…. The worst situation.
Har koi ab use avoid kar raha tha. Usse dur reh raha tha. Koi achhe se baat nahi kar raha tha aur ab Niraj ko ye samajhne me der nahi lagi ke Sandip ne sabko uske bare me bata diya hai.
Woh class me gaya to koi uske pas baithke ke liye ready nahi tha. Woh ek frnd ke pas jakar baithne laga hi tha ke,
“ek shart pe baithne dunga, suck krna padega” bolkar uska frnd jor jor se hasne laga. uski baat sunke Niraj piche ki taraf badhne laga par ab koi bhi use apne pas nhi bithana chahta tha. Woh last wali bench pe jaise hi jake baitha uski najar blackboard ki taraf gayi to woh shockd hogaya,likha tha,
“ 9096337799- call me I suck dicks”
Niraj ne is baat ko avoid krke class khatm ki. Ab uske sath roj aisa hi hone laga koi usse baat nhi krta tha, galti se bhi kisiko touch hojaye to koi bhi use kuch bhi bol deta tha.
Canteen me ekbaar Niraj akele baithke khana kha rha tha to preity uske pass jakar baith gayi,
“tumhe yaha nahi baithna chahiye” Niraj ne Preity se kaha.
“mujhe gays se koi prblm nhi aur gay agar tere jaisa pyara ho to me to gays ki respect hi karungi” preity ne use jawab diya.
“oye Preity tu bhi lesbian hai kya jo hijde ke sath baithi hai?” Manoj ne Niraj ko chidate huye kaha.
“Preity tu please yaha se ja, meri wajah se tujhe sunna padega tujhe prblm hogi tujhe meri kasam hai yaha se ja please…”
Preity waha se uthke chali gayi.
Niraj ki life ab fir se pehle jaisi hogayi thi. Akele shant rehna koi dost nahi, clg ke baad job and study bas.
Par sandip aur Punam ko eksath khush dekhkar woh ye sab bhul jata tha. Ab woh sirf wait kr rha tha clg ke khatm hone ki taki ye sabkuch hamesha ke liye piche chhut jaye.
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Aaj aakhri paper tha. Exams khatm hogaye the aur college hamesha ke liye khatm hogaya ye sochke sab students masti kar rahe the. Aur yaha Niraj apni bag pack karke nikal raha tha tabhi use kisine piche se awaaz lagayi,
“preity tum?”
“Niraj college khatm hogaya par tu contact me rahega na? tere plans kya hai iske baad?”
“ iske baad to result aanetak wahi Pizza delivery aur fir to achha sa job dhundhke maje se jiyunga life” Niraj ko hasta dekh Preity ki aakhon me pani aagaya.
“Me samajh sakti hu tujhpe kya biti hai college me I am sorry yaar me tere liye kuch nahi kar payi.”
“hey its ok yaar, tum udas na ho yaar dekh fir me ro dunga…. Hehehhee”
“ hamesha khush rehna Niraj, me dua karungi tere liye...” Preity se baat krte waqt Niraj kin ajar Sandip pe gayi woh Punam ke sath baat kar raha tha.
“Preity, dua karni hai na to bas ek dua karna, ke ye dil Sandip ke bina reh paye”
Ye sunkar Preity ne Niraj ko hug kar liya, “tum contact me to rahoge na”
“ nahi……. Kabhi nahi” ye kehkar Niraj waha se chala gaya.
Preity use dekhti hi reh gayi. Tabhi waha Rakesh aagaya, “oye yaha kya kar rhi hai jhalli?”
“ dekh use Rakesh, apna sabkuch lutake, sare rishte gawake, dunia ka sabse amir insaan jarha hai……. Aaj hamare pass sabkuch hoke bhi hum uske samne kitne garib lag rhe hai.
“tu pagal hogayi hai, sun next week get-together plan kiya hai ok”
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Yaha Niraj apne room pe pohoch gaya aur lock khone laga to piche se awaz aayi,
“beta, yaha koi kaam milega? Ghar ka kaam? Koi bhi kaam ho chalega tumhe agar cook chahiye ho to ya saaf safaiwali”
Ek aurat achhe kapdon me thi chehre se lag raha tha bahot dukhi hai aur shayd rone ki wajah se aane suj gayi thi.
“aunty aapko kaam chahiye? Par aap to achhe ghar ke lagte ho” Niraj ne pucha.
“are kya batau, achhe ghar se hu me, ghar pe khane ki kami nahi hai par bête ki shadi hogayi aur bête ne sheher dikhane ke bahane se yaha le aaya aur yahi chhod diya hamesha ke liye” woh aurat rone lagi jor jor se.
“aunty me aapko paise deta hu aap apne gaon chale jana”
“nahi, nahi jana mujhe wapas… ab mera waha koi nahi bas ab yaha koi kaam mil jaye to me reh lungi ya fir koi vridhashram ho to woh bata do… achhe ghar se hu na bhikh mangne ka man nahi karta… kuch kaam karungi mehnat ka khaungi to chain se so paungi”
Uska dard dekhke Niraj ki bhi aakhon me pani aagaya, “aunty mere sath rahogi? Me akela rehta hu mere pass maa nahi hai, aur ab aapke pas beta nahi hai… kya aap meri Maa banoge?”
Niraj ki baate sunke woh aurat uski taraf dekhti hi reh gayi
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Get-together :
Aaj harkoi khush tha enjoy kar rha tha, DJ, food couples evrythng was just fresh.
“are aaj woh apna chokra nahi aaya, party me to aise logon ki jarurat padti hai na badhai dene ke liye” Avinash ne joke mara aur sab hasne lage.
“are nahi aaj to use koi mil gaya hoga dono dandiya khel rahe honge” Rakesh ne bhi bolna shuru kar diya.
Ye sunke Preity aur gussa hogayi, “stop it guys, its enough now…!!”
“are tujhe kya hogaya achanak se? woh gay hai yaar….. I mean gay” Rakesh ke expressions badal gaye.
“ha gay hai to?”
“to…….. dekh na he lyk boys… yuck”
“tujhe pata hai gay kya hota hai? Use boys kyu pasand hai? Insaan inborn gay hota hia ya baad me banta hia?”
“nahi mujhe ye sab nahi pata” Rakesh ne shant hokar bola.
“to… jisbare me kuch pata nahi us baat pe tumlog comment kaise kar sakte ho?”
Preity ko bich me rokte huye Sandip bol pada, “Preity tu us ladke ki tarafdari kyu krti rehti hai hamesha?”
“aur tab jab tujhe pata hai usne apne sandip ke sath kya kiya?” Rakesh ne bhi sandip ko support kiya.
“ha janti hu usne Sandip ke sath kya kiya isiliye bol rhi hu he is innocent … Sandip agar woh chahta na to aaram se apni identity chupa sakta tha, use koi fark nhi padta.. par tune socha hai usne aisa kyu kiya? Sirf tere liye… teri khushi ke liye usne khud ke liye nark chuna hai… kitne frnds the uske aaj ek bhi nahi hai kyu tumhari wajah se… woh chahta to sari misunderstandings waisi hi rehne deta waise bhi college khatm hi honewala tha par usne aisa kiya nahi Sandip… kyunki woh tera sach me best frnd tha. Apne sapne todkar usne tujhe teri khushiya lautayi hai usne sachhi dosti nibhayi hia yaar kaash tu ye samajh pata…. Aur rahi baat uske misundrstndings create krni ki to woh to bas pyaar me tha isliye usne kiya par jab use uski galti samajh me aayi usne sudhar bhi to di… aur sandip 2saal se propose krnewala tha tu Punam ko par kabhi himmat nahi hui par fir pure clg ke samne kar diya iski wajah bhi to kahi na kahi Niraj hi tha…….. dosti to usne nibhayi hia yaaro, sachhi dosti sachha pyaar humne to sirf dushmani nibhayi usse… jina battar kar diya tha uska clg me..usne apni dosti apne pyar ko jyada importance diya apne identity se aur humne uski identity ko uske dosti se jyada important diya uska nature uski dosti hamare liye choti pad gayi uske gay hone ke samne … kaise yaar kaise kya fayda fir aaj ke jamane me rehne ka ye badi badi degree lene ka… agar mujhe koi dost chunne ko bole to me 10 straights ko thukra du us ek Niraj ke liye” Preity kuch jyada hi expressive hogayi thi.
Punam Preity ko dekhe jarhi thi aur Sandip ab kuch seriously sochne laga tha.
“shayad mujhe Niraj ko phone karna chahiye na” Sandip ne jaise hi ye bola Preity ke chehre pe smile aagayi. Punam abhi bhi convinced nahi hui thi.
“ Niraj kaha hai tu? Aaj aaya kyu nahi? Mujhe tujhse kuch important baat karni hai” Sandip ne tabhi Niraj ko phone lagaya.
“ me to filhal out of station hu re… sun me aarha hu result wale din tab milte hai” kehkar phone cut kar diya Niraj ne.
Ab Sandip ko intejaar tha results ka.
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Result day:
“oye tere kitte aaye?” Rakesh ne manoj se pucha.
“yaar 1st class hi aaya hai bas L “
“Yupieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee mera distinction aagaya…..” Preity uchal rhi thi.
“ha ha moti chal ja badi aayi talented bandi” Avinash ne entry li.
“par ye sandip kaha hai?” Rakesh yaha waha dekhne laga.
“ woh Niraj ka wait kar raha hai bahar” Punam ne bataya.
“hey sandip chal na bahot dino baad mile hai aaj chal na thodi drink karte hai chal na” Manoj sandip se jabardasti krne laga.
“are nahi niraj aata hi hoga ekbaar bas usse baat hojaye fir chalte hai.” Sandip baith gaya.
“are fir ye girls hai na woh bata degi Niraj ko woh aajayega aur waise bhi uske pass mobile hai cha lab” Rakesh ke kehne pe Sandip man gaya aur sab drink krne chale gaye.
Pura din bit gaya par Niraj aaya nahi drink karke bhi hogaya aur sab ghar bhi chale gaye. Niraj ka phone bhi switched off tha.
“dekha na ye gays pe bharosa nahi krna chhaiye kabhi, lets go chalte hai ab” kehkar Punam aur Sandip bhi chale gaye.
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Present day, Aftr 3yrs :
“kyu nahi aaya tu usdin Niraj, mujhe tujhe gale lagake sorry bolna tha… kaha hai tu Niraj, kis haal me hai… miss u alott atleast get-together pe to aaja”
Bolte bolte Sandip sogaya.
Get-togethr wale din har koi enjoy kar rha tha par Sandip wait kar raha tha Niraj ka. Woh usdin bhi nahi aaya.
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After few days:
Sandip apne office jarha tha car me. Drive karte karte phone pe Punam se baat kar raha tha aur tabhi uske car ke samne ek aurat aagayi aur usne emergency brake lagaye.
“ohh shit, aunty aapko lagi to nahi na?” sandip ghabra gaya tha.
“are nahi beta mujhe nahi laga galti to merit hi me hi bich me aagayi thi woh kya hai na urgent hospital jana hai” old aged woman thi lagbhag 50-55 saal ki.
“ kaha jarhi hai aap aunty?”
“Govardhan hospital”
“chaliye fir meri car me baithiye me chhod deta hu aapko me bhi usi raste se jarha hu” sandip ne us aurat ko car me bithaya aur car start kar di.
“tumhara naam kya hai bête? Mujhe pata nahi kyu tumhe kahi dekha hua lag rha hai”
“ aunty mera naam Sandip hai, Sandip Katariya”
“Sandip…. Tum Niraj Verma ko jante ho?” us aurat ke is sawaal ne Sandip ko uper se niche tak hila diya.
“aunty aap niraj ko kaise jante ho? Kaha hai wo? Please bataiye na? mujhe usse milna bahot important hai” sandip ekdam excited hogaya.
“ me uski Maa hu… aur hospital me main use hi dekhne jarhi hu.”
Baat krte krte hospital aagya aur sandip ne car rok li.
“thank u beta… tum aaoge usse milne?”
sandip ne hospital ki taraf dekha, “aunty ye to AIDS ka hospital hai” sandip shoked hogaya.
“ha beta…… tum jao office me samajh sakti hu.. me use nahi bataungi ke tum mile the.”
Sandip direct hospital to chala gaya par uske dimag me wahi ghum raha tha ke Niraj ko aids kaise hogaya? Kya kiya usne? Kahi woh galat ………….
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“kya??????? Niraj ko aids? Mujhe pata tha ye gays aise hi hote hai yaar kisi ek ken hi hote jo ladka mil jaye uspe try marenge uske sath sex karenge… movies me nhi dekha kya?” Punam sandip ko samjha rhi thi.
“par pata nahi kyu mera dil nahi man raha hai ke niraj aisa hoga, woh aisa kar hi nahi sakta yaar” sandip abhi bhi convince nahi hua tha.
Woh roj usi hospital ke samne se gujarta par kabhi ander jane hi himmat nahi juta paya. Par ek din himmat juta ke woh ander chala hi gaya.
“xcuse me, kya aap mujhe bata sakte hai Niraj Verma kaha admit hai?” Sandip ne hospital ke reception pe inquiry ki.
Receptionist ne register me check kiya aur bataya,
“I m sorry sir Niaj aaj hi expire hogaye hai”
Aur lady ki baat sunte hi Sandip ke pairo tale jamin khisak gayi. Uske dil ki dhadkane achanak tej hogayi… us time pe kya karu kya nahi use kuch samajh nhi aarha tha. Uske dimag ne kaam karna band kar diya. Aakhon se uske pani behne laga. Woh mudkar bahar nikalne hi wala tha ki lady ne fir se use awaz lagayi.
“suno, agar aapko uski family se milna hai to aap yaha se right leke ander jaiye unki family aayi hai body leke ke liye.”
Sadip ander jane ke liye right muda. Uski aakhon se aansu tapak rahe the. Har kadam ke sath use Niraj yaad aarha tha. Uska muskurata chehra ab uske aakhon ke samne naach raha tha. Jaise jaise woh najdik pohoch raha tha uske dil ki dhadkane aur tej horhi thi.
Woh pohoch gaya par waha 2 aurate the. “aunty” sandip ne aankhe pochte huye kaha.
“sandip, Niraj sahi kehta tha ke tu ekdin usse milne jarur aayega, par dekh rona mat usne promise liya tha humse ke uske jane ke baad koi nahi royega sab use haske bida karenge.”
“par aunty aap?”
“are ye Niraj ki real Maa hai aur me, mujhe Niraj ne god liya tha, sunne me ajib lagta hia na par ye sach hai, mere apne bachhon ne mujhe ghar se nikal diya aur isne paraya hoke ek bête jaisa pyaar diya. Sablog gay gay ka bow karte hai… agar ye fark hai straight aur gay me na to me chahungi mujhe agle janam me gay beta hi ho”
Niraj ki real Mom sandip ke pass aayi aur boli, “sandip, Niraj ko jab inhone bataya ke tu unhe raste pe mila tha tab use yakeen hogaya tha ke tu ekdin jarur usse milne aayega isliye usne tujhe ye diary dene ko boli thi”
Mom ne Sandip ko diary de di.
Sandip ki curiosity badhti jarhi thi isliye woh tabhi canteen me jakar diary padhne laga.
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“ Sandip, aap jab mummy ne bataya ke tum unhe mile the to achanak sari purani yaade taza hogayi, mujhe nahi pata tum mere bare me kya sochte ho par ha mujhe pata hai ke ekdin tum mujhse milne jarur aaoge isliye ye likh rha hu,
Maine tujhe in 3saalon me bahot jyada miss kiya hamesha socha tujhse baat karu par fir socha shayd mere wapas aane se purani baate fir se na aajaye aur uper se meri ye bimari.. tujhe pata hai ab mere pas do do maa hai.. ek ko me mom bolta hu aur dusri ko mummy.
Tu hamesha mujhse puchta tha na ke mujhe gende ke phool itne pasand kyu hai, shayd tujhe yaad nahi par clg ke pehle din tune jis aurat ki help ki thi bus stop pe woh meri mom thi pehle din mujhe bus stop pe chhodne aayi thi… shayd ab tum kabhi nahi puchoge ke mujhe gende ke phool kyu pasand hai… usdin maine tujhe apne hi class me dekha to bahot khush hogaya tha aur hamesha wait karta tha ke tu khud aakar mere se dosti kare aur waise hi hua aur me tere pyaar me kho gaya.
Mujhe is baat ka regret nahi hai… seriously kyunki maine mere pyaar ko meri kamjori nahi meri strength banayi shayd isi wajah se me is bimari se 3saal lad paya.
Sandip mujhe tujhe kuch important batana hai,
Usdin result ke din me college aaya tha maine tujhe dhundha par tu nahi dikha mujhe Punam wahi thi par maine usse puchna thik nahi samjha, maine call try kiya to mera balance khatm hogaya tha isliye me recharge karwane shop pe gaya.
Waha mujhe kuch ajib si harkat sunai di, waha piche kuch purani dukane thi jaha hamare college ke kuch ladkon ne hamari hi college ki ek ladki ko jabardasti utha liya tha aur waha woh unpe jabardasti kar the. Kuch logon ne dekha bhi par kisine kuch nahi kiya mujhse dekha nahi gaya aur me waha chala gaya, me unko pehchanta tha isliye me ander chala gaya.
“hey Raju, Amar, Deepak itna achha maal akele akele khaoge kya? Thoda sa hame bhi chathao aaj tak humne kuch nahi khaya” maine jaanbujhkar horny hone ki acting ki.
“are Niraj tu bhi interested hai kya? Chalo bhai thik hai chal aaj iski virgity hamara virgin babu todega….” Kehkar unhone ladki ko mere pas kar diya. Maine chupke se uske sath me scooty ki chabi de di to woh samajh gayi aur woh khadi hokar horny hone ki acting karne lagi aur jaise hi chance mila maine use bahar ki taraf dhakka de diya aur darwaja ander se band kar diya aur woh ladki meri scooty leke chali gayi pata hai woh scooty mom ne di thi mujhe gift. Mujhe laga tha woh ladki police ko lekar aayegi par woh wapas hi nahi aayi.
Aur yaha hawas se bhare huye 3 ladke mere dagabaji krne ki wajah se itna bhadak gaye,
“ saale benchod, hero ban rha hia bada ladki ko bhaga diya ab ye itna khada hua hai iska kya karenge”
To dusre ne bola, “ye hai na ladki gayi to kya ladka hai yaha virgin, hame kya hole se matlab hai bas aur choos to ye bhi lega achhe se”
Aur fir 2 ghante tak woh sab chalta raha. Un tino ke samne meri kuch nahi chali. Aur unme se shayd kisiko AIDS tha jiska bahot bada infection mujhe bhi hogaya aur aaj me yaha pada hu.
Par achha iss baat ka lag raha hai ke meri zindagi waste nahi gayi aaj woh ladki kahi bahot khush hogi aur shayd mujhe yaad kar rahi hogi.
I hope so tu mujhe maaf kar dega meri sari galtiyon ke liye…”
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Sandip ki aakhon se pani nahi ruk raha tha. Usne hamesha Niraj ko bura hi bola tha par aaj woh Niraj ki sabse jyada respect karne laga tha.
Woh bas ek baat ka guilt feel kar rha tha bahot jyada ke shayd woh ek din pehle aata to woh Niraj se mafi mang sakta tha.par usne apne life ka sabse bada chance kho diya sirf apni galatfaimiyo ki wajah se. aaj use puri zindagi bhar bas isi guilt ke lekar jeena padega aur yahi ab uski saza ban gayi thi ….!!!
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“Didi , unhone to aane se inkaar kar diya ab dah sanskar ki vidhiya kon karega, mere bête ki aatma ko shanty to milegi na?” Niraj ki mom uski mummy se baat kar rhi thi.
“ uski aatma ko shanty jarur milegi me karunga sari vidhiya puri, aur uski aakhri ichha bhi, me dunga use agnee, ek life partner ke taur pe”
Sandip ki ye baat sunke dono khush hogayi.
Sandip ne aakhri baar Niraj ko kiss kiya lips pe. Aur use agnee de di.
“ I love you Niraj, I love u alott, teri jagah meri life me koi nahi le sakta kabhi bhi nahi…thanks mere life me aane ke liye… thank you mera dost banne ke liye… thank you mujhe jivan ka asli matlab samjhane ke liye… thank u mujhe mera pyaar dilane ke liye……….. aur sabse bada thank you mujhe pyaar karne ke liye… shayd tere jitna pyar mujhe koi nahi kar payega”
Hum hamesha kisiko uski sachhai jane bina decision bana lete hai use bura man lete hai par hum kabhi uski gehrai me nahi jate ya samne wale ki baat nahi sunte aisa nahi karna chahiye, galat hai ye aur shayd isi wajah se hum aise guilt ke sath jeene lagte hai jo hame jeene bhi nahi deti aur marne bhi nahi deti.
Niraj’s last words :
Magic… He said that’s what love is, Love makes everything come alive, It can turn the ugliest catterpiller into the most beautiful butterfly. It can change the world so that It’s never dark, or sad or painful.. But love is not strong enough to stop us from dying, and it cant give u a dad u never really had. So now you are left all alone in the world.
There’s no magic… But just when think u will nvr knw how that magic feels like, someone unexpectedly come along and he is amazing. He makes everything better. He makes you smile again. He makes you believe in the magic you always secretly wished were true…
But then it all ends. The magic has run out.
How could u allow urself to believe in what u always knw was just a beautiful lie…!!!
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Sandip and Punam ab LGBT activist hai, Preity bhi unhe hamesha kaam me help karti hai. Aaj Niraj unke dil me zinda hai…!!!
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!! THE END !!
